For some reason

"dah lebih 10 thun da hidup"
"Asyik nak kene bagitau je wat ape"
"Solat pon nk kena panggil"
"X tau la ape nak jadi"
"Dah ade otak, bole fikir mule rse pandai melawan"
"Masuk skola pandai rse pandai la tu"
"Baru buat skit da perasan bagus"

Yeah right...
Aku pon x tau aku nak jd ape... hmph!😠
Ok.. cmnila...
You said that our live never change, it was always like this but you yourself know that our heart changes.
You thought that those 'small' insult were just a joke...
You know what ... I'm a girl too, deep inside it actually hurts.
Why? Why do you always say that you understand me so well, you said that you hate people that talks big but aren't you bragging about yourself too much?
Every time anyone showed up you would insult me and say how useless I am. Staying in the house and finished off your money and all even tho I I've done a lot...
To be honest, I don't even remember the last time you praised me for what I did.
All I could hear these days were insult or fake praises that ended with teasing expression that doesn't sound honest at all. Was I the one who misunderstood it? I don't think so.
You always said that you need to take care of your image.. then what about mine? People around us must have thought that I'm the worst. How shameful of me.
Maybe you really did understand me but the way you're handling my emotion was always the same.. at times it could be fun at how you were joking on how lame I look when I cry. Or smirk at me while I'm crying. But at times it hurts like hell. You always do think of your own reputation but never think about others'.
I don't know what to say anymore.
You maybe love me but it looks like I'm starting to doubt it.
I know that it was just to burn my spirits..
All what you've done so far.
But, you know at times I could use some praises, good impression and all.